Every day is a fight

Archive for October 2011

“I will diminish, and go into the West and remain Galadriel”

October 21, 2011

Passed the test. For now. I feel relieved, but also scared. This is getting overwhelming. A serious talk with my counselor, he found it good that I see this as an addiction – the same way than drug addicts have, starting with marijuana and ending up with heroin. Well, but all I can do is […]

We can rise above them all

October 20, 2011

Three cups of sort-of-coffee, in a row. One after another. Within 4 hours though. Got a release of stress, pretty nice. Still my mind is completely mixed up. That “thing with Ari” hit me again last night when going to bed. Not the stuff I talked yesterday. This is different and a lot stronger. Although […]

Confrontation is good, skipping your chores not

October 20, 2011

In a sort of productive way of course. I have nothing to say, I’m out of words, spilled them already. So long silent, only talking to cat, and then so much talking (even when only in text mode) in two days. Well it’s good, it’s good. Plus it’s a conf. I should go head-on to […]

“I still felt warmth in the solidity of granite”

October 15, 2011

Last Sunday I was out on a long walk. Took some photos. These from a red rock were the best ones. Full sunlight – enough light. Almost all the other were a little bit unsharp because of too little light, even when it was throughoutly sunny day and the leaves were really shining yellow and […]

Keep talking

October 8, 2011

It’s getting worse. Must avoid being out when it’s dark. Succesful in that this week, but have the increasing need to go out. Some days I don’t even open the balcony door after dark. Should concentrate on internet today. Had to quit watching Criminal minds in the middle today, it got me too involved. Have […]


October 3, 2011

“I chose my victims after the simple principle that they knew too much. But as you might get this wrong I will have to explain it a little. I do say they knew too much. But it was also me who told them who I was. Yes, exactly, I captured those girls, told them who […]

“The clouds above moves closer

October 1, 2011

…looking so dissatisfied, and the ground below grew colder, as they put you down inside. But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing…” Sitate of the day from Linkin Park, the song Valentine’s day. Sad. :/ Still, here are some photos as a memory of the gone summer. A rainy day in Sapokka park in Kotka. […]

He who shall hurt the little Wren

October 1, 2011

…shall never be belov’d by men. Well known poem by good ol’ William Blake. Everyone knows how it ends: Every night and every morn some to misery are born. Every morn and every night some are born to sweet delight some are born to sweet delight, some are born to endless night. (And the rest: […]