Every day is a fight

Archive for April 2014


April 27, 2014

The post name describes it so well… Since coming back home I’ve had a panic attack, felt anxious every day, suffered from heightened social phobia, fears and worries and a strong urge to just give up. Start using drugs. Get in trouble. Attack and kill people. Vandalize this house. I feel continuing rage boiling deep […]

Don’t you cry, it’ll be alright

April 26, 2014

After laying in bed for 20 minutes decided to get up again. On overdrive, I just don’t sleep. Left old place yesterday. My sis came and gave me stuff she had written to read. It was horrible. Well written, but… I have blocked everything from back then to survive. All my energy was directed to […]

Big fat black snake

April 13, 2014

A dragon snake with thin sharp barbs sinking into my flesh, sucking out my energy, eating me alive. It’s beneath my skin, getting fatter and fatter and me inside is getting weaker and weaker. The snake chokes me every time I try to eat, or even think about eating. I feel so sick all the […]

Storytime: Camping

April 10, 2014

As long as I can remember my parents have always taken us camping. At first we only had the green tent, one as in the pic. It used to look so big inside, when I was 4 or 5 years old. It even had a little window. The construction was held up by two poles […]


April 6, 2014

I’ve started calling my cat a meatloaf. Or a catloaf, a furloaf, a Maruloaf, and saying he has green peas and carrots in his belly, or nothing at all. Right now he has been picky about food all night, so there’s not a single pea in his belly. :3 Got not much to tell really. […]