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Today I stare back at you, darkness

February 5, 2017

Just never surrender, that’s it. In November, my closest friend was diagnosed with final stage cancer and she passed away at Christmas Night. Life hasn’t been very lively after that. I’m plagued by serious depression and the suicidal thoughts have returned. I dream about her last days a lot. So it has come to a […]

Storytime: Making love to the sound of the wind

December 30, 2013

Every night, before laying to sleep, the boy told his dad he loved him. In the old green house, in the bedroom under the roof where the sound of the wind never ceased, every night the dad pulled off his belt and beat up his son. Smiling when the boy tried to resist. It was […]

I watched you fall

April 11, 2013

No energy for any extras. I got the best grade (3) from physics, and 2 of the first course of math, but there’s whole lot to do before retiring to summer holiday. It turns out I’m not allowed to continue in the group I’m in now. Because I was missing 3 times. I didn’t know […]

Hai sie, ostat sie hyv√§ hevoise?

January 28, 2013

In the beginning of every blog stands a mountain of junk comments. That refers to Darkness over day. The title is from a finnish comic book that made fun of different shows and artists of pop culture. That one was from Dallas. Wish I had it, is always good for lots of laughs and me […]

Meadows of heaven

June 22, 2012

It’s midsummer eve. I barely slept last night. Didn’t fall asleep even after sleeping pill. Coloured the whole mandala at night and finally fell asleep after 4am. Up at 10am and just put clothes on, ate a yoghurt, went to toilet and out. Less than 20 mins to get outta house. In shop they didn’t […]

Mandala

June 22, 2012

Have nothing to say, but someone came here with the search term “cutted wrists”. Even when that is written wrong as the verb “cut” has no other forms I’ve decided to give that person what he/she wants. Here you are, new pics from beginning of this week: I’m not doing this because I especially enjoy […]

Summer comes…

May 28, 2012

That means many warm nights spent outside doing different kind of things. That is what it should mean at least. I should not just sit inside at computer. :P Found a great website today: Allycat Metal Ware. ;) Go check it out! Full of cool stuff to spend money on! But I spent money on […]

Still heading for the ground

May 8, 2012

I’m not asking why. I know this happens. I can’t do anything. Everything’s been fine for so long now. Then breakdown. Pain. Desperation. Tears. Everything that’s been so good and made me happy slips away, further and further, away from sight. I see no beauty anymore. I loved to see my plants grow, everything I […]

Babel fish

April 14, 2012

I need one to put in my ear. Cause I now have not 3 languages to deal with, but 4. Finnish, german, british and american english. Talking with brits I use british way of writing words, with americans the american way. Got a new friend on Facebook. He talks a bit fast. I can type […]

Fuck yeah

March 30, 2012

OUCH!! Like, most of those I’ve heard from other people, and the few rest realised by myself… It’s from ’76 but still! This blog has had already 880 views! Time to celebrate, what? — That was all yesterday, Thursday. I was OK. There was bloodlust, but I had it under control. Then came evening, then […]