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Today I stare back at you, darkness

February 5, 2017

Just never surrender, that’s it. In November, my closest friend was diagnosed with final stage cancer and she passed away at Christmas Night. Life hasn’t been very lively after that. I’m plagued by serious depression and the suicidal thoughts have returned. I dream about her last days a lot. So it has come to a […]

Birds.

January 31, 2016

Are flying around chirping today. Sun shines for a short while before setting behind the houses. From living room window I can see a small square of the sky. Thin clouds. Blue. Trees and branches lit with the last glow of the sun, not much more than a ghost. It’s 4pm and still light outside. […]

New home, new life, old problems.

September 5, 2015

First off, Maru enjoys himself. Lots of place to run, a balcony and a cow hide in sleeping room to roll on. I’m not so fine. Still forced to use mobile, no internet at home. Hurt my knee bad on first school day and it’s been a pain in the ass. Moving has just started […]

Cold.

November 17, 2014

Feet been hurting like hell since I went out in the morning. Half slept among the others through morning lessons. But I have the feeling I’m slowly getting the hang of the topic tolerances. And M is a better teacher than J. We had some lazy asses repeating the course. I still got no working […]

Leaves.

October 10, 2013

How that word can have two meanings. It’s fall here, all trees have all shades of yellow and red and rust leaves, those leaves litter the streets, the air smells fresh and wet, like forest and fields and parks and wet sand. Drops of water fall but they wither away as soon as they started. […]

Deaf, blind.

September 5, 2013

People say I’m strong. But sometimes I don’t feel like that at all. My ears hurt and often I can’t hear anything with either one. My eyes hurt, the right one is now red inside and out, in class I can’t see anything without my glasses. My head hurts. Two days this week when I […]

I watched you fall

April 11, 2013

No energy for any extras. I got the best grade (3) from physics, and 2 of the first course of math, but there’s whole lot to do before retiring to summer holiday. It turns out I’m not allowed to continue in the group I’m in now. Because I was missing 3 times. I didn’t know […]

Old stuff, beware

April 11, 2012

NOTE: MAY CONTAIN OFFENSIVE MATERIAL. IF YOU ARE SENSITIVE PLEASE LEAVE NOW (and never come back har har xD). Thought I’d post a couple of old pics. Was in school today, wanted to leave after lunch but was kinda forced to stay cause our cooking teacher said there’s a special gluten free dessert for me […]

Liquid love

August 27, 2011

Few reasons why my life’s unbearable right now. 1. I hate food. I eat it and feel sick, but can’t throw up, and still end up eating more of it, until I sit on the bathroom floor choking in it and feeling more ill than ever in my life. Then I get up, eat some […]

Savior

August 18, 2011

To my very surprise the medicin I took four hours ago works and makes me feel more clear. I took a second one too to make sure I stay sane tonight. Well, as much of it as possible for the insane me.. :P But my thinking is more rational again, I can concentrate on things […]