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Empty deserts of tearless nights

March 13, 2017

Awake with the painful memories or trapped into endless nightmares. I can’t fall asleep cause all I can think of is her, lying in the hospital bed, dying. At some point I fall into a chem induced sleep that is no sleep, it’s walking from one terrible scene to another, not finding a way out […]

Let me give you a hand.

July 9, 2016

This year’s been hell so far. But here I am still. 6 am, after a long night enjoying a game, drinking energy drink, Maru sleeping next to me on my new couch. Morning sun reaches the bushes in front of the balcony. Stay quiet, don’t move, then maybe the heat is bearable. I’ve been unstable […]

The hug of the badger-panda.

May 18, 2015

Can’t say I’m doing good. There was a better time, but… Things got worse again. Problems with food, taste hallucination, heavy allergy and skin problems, asshole parents. Stress level surprisingly low. Tried two alternative sleeping pills but they caused a massive weight gaining and now I’m back on Z. Have been sleeping better since 2,5 […]

Can’t. Can? Can!

December 20, 2014

Let’s see how long I stand listening to this. Actually I started to feel pretty uncomfortable during the first song. *shiver* Wrote a long post to Forgotten Shores. Go check it out. Sorry for typing errors. I’m butterfingers. But a healthier butterfingers now, even when the damn blood test results were shitty. The cuts are […]

Hollow

November 15, 2014

I know I haven’t been here in ages. I still got nothing to say. My life sucks and problems just keep increasing and getting worse all the time. No matter what I do. After 5 weeks every night nightmares I had almost one and half weeks break (around my birthday), but now I’m back to […]

Just keep walking

August 30, 2014

Things are better now. Easier, not so much stress. Blocking it out with music and reading whenever I can. Talk with people. Focus on working. Too tired to worry. Won’t help forever, but at least every week from Monday to Friday. Not much to tell about the work. Got no working clothes but can do […]

Storytime: Camping

April 10, 2014

As long as I can remember my parents have always taken us camping. At first we only had the green tent, one as in the pic. It used to look so big inside, when I was 4 or 5 years old. It even had a little window. The construction was held up by two poles […]

Love, devotion

March 26, 2014

22.3. Sick with caffeine and sugar withdrawal. Maybe I should just give in and make me a cup of coffee. It helps a bit. Need to eat too. Yes, coffee with lots of milk, the rest of my favourite bread, some yoghurt and a glas of self made juice from mum. I don’t usually make […]

Storytime: NaNoWriMo

March 4, 2014

You can find it here. I guess I found out about it while browsing blogs or message boards. I can’t recall. It’s a long while ago. My first taking part was 2005. Then followed 2006 and 2007. In 2005 I didn’t reach nearly 50,000 words, but was able to create an exceptional sci-fi story that […]

Fashion dolls

January 17, 2014

This has been brooding for a while. Been too busy and tired to update either one, this or Darkness Over Day. There are those rare moments when you realize something about your being, something that then seems so obvious. Today I thought about the time when I was little and when I for some reason […]