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Today I stare back at you, darkness

February 5, 2017

Just never surrender, that’s it. In November, my closest friend was diagnosed with final stage cancer and she passed away at Christmas Night. Life hasn’t been very lively after that. I’m plagued by serious depression and the suicidal thoughts have returned. I dream about her last days a lot. So it has come to a […]

New home, new life, old problems.

September 5, 2015

First off, Maru enjoys himself. Lots of place to run, a balcony and a cow hide in sleeping room to roll on. I’m not so fine. Still forced to use mobile, no internet at home. Hurt my knee bad on first school day and it’s been a pain in the ass. Moving has just started […]

No one nothing is real

July 9, 2013

Nah it’s not only the sleep deprivation. I just feel horrible. Nothing makes sense. This is the second day. Been listening to music in incredible amounts, playing a bit, posting shit in Facebook, watching porn. Well, mostly just watching porn. Mostly Tumblr. 90%. The rest that stuff I already have saved. Manga, pics… I can […]

Rainbow Country

May 11, 2013

Fallout just crashed again a bit less than an hour ago. Yesterday I finally got this weapon, the Xuanlong Assault Rifle, one of the unique weapons in the game. Xuanlong means black dragon. Screw it’s fragility, it’s still one of my favorite weapons along with “Little Moonbeam’s” 10mm SMG, combat shotgun and sniper rifle. Check […]

I like my life

February 7, 2013

And the world around won’t stop turning tonight… I like. :3 Been busy once again. Today we had math (super easy) and made food. I got loads of food with me, gluten free. Maccheroni casserole and an original finnish cupcake type dessert called Runeberg’s cake. The guy who made mine made some mistakes though and […]

Meadows of heaven

June 22, 2012

It’s midsummer eve. I barely slept last night. Didn’t fall asleep even after sleeping pill. Coloured the whole mandala at night and finally fell asleep after 4am. Up at 10am and just put clothes on, ate a yoghurt, went to toilet and out. Less than 20 mins to get outta house. In shop they didn’t […]

Mandala

June 22, 2012

Have nothing to say, but someone came here with the search term “cutted wrists”. Even when that is written wrong as the verb “cut” has no other forms I’ve decided to give that person what he/she wants. Here you are, new pics from beginning of this week: I’m not doing this because I especially enjoy […]

Conan in Halo

May 1, 2012

This sucks, but I admit I watched almost a full episode of Conan O’Brien. O_o AND it was funny. He has the ugliest face in the universe, but some of it stroke my funny nerv. Politic jokes, voice acting for his Halo character. xD Had some awful dreams again. Eating human flesh, some crime story […]

My sister called my Tropical Hello Kitty a n*****

March 8, 2012

:( It’s a pretty little Hawaiian girl-kitty. But at least she freed her from the swimming ring that was stuck. She has a lil tummy, that’s why. And anyway, I don’t understand why my family members have started to use the n-word at all! Is it some kind of rebellion against the social norms? Why? […]

Where do you go, restless soul?

February 18, 2012

Listen to the city at night. Sounds like home, doesn’t it? Sounds like millions of innocent victims screaming. 201106* At times easy to see – The demon. The real me. 200307* Snowflakes And fresh blood – A perfect night. 29.11.05 — Some old poems from a series called AnOther Poems. I have written them “as […]