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3-minute-meow.

July 19, 2015

Or better a 24/7 meow. It’s getting worse and worse, and all my time I’m either in coma or fighting to stay awake – no resting. My brain is asleep all the time and I can’t get it awake for more than few minutes at the time. It’s a bad feeling. It’s like sleep paralysis […]

Hollow

November 15, 2014

I know I haven’t been here in ages. I still got nothing to say. My life sucks and problems just keep increasing and getting worse all the time. No matter what I do. After 5 weeks every night nightmares I had almost one and half weeks break (around my birthday), but now I’m back to […]

Big fat black snake

April 13, 2014

A dragon snake with thin sharp barbs sinking into my flesh, sucking out my energy, eating me alive. It’s beneath my skin, getting fatter and fatter and me inside is getting weaker and weaker. The snake chokes me every time I try to eat, or even think about eating. I feel so sick all the […]

The monkey doesn’t let me sleep

February 5, 2014

Huge worry about money atm. Got the black snake under control, finally, and been way too tired for the red snake to burn me inside, but now I’ve got a problem with that damn monkey. Can’t sleep anymore. It’s keeping me awake hours and hours, tranquilizers have no effect, my brain is failing from too […]

Hanging on

December 21, 2013

Stomach hurts cause I fear the holiday. Have my defenses all up and ready for fighting. At least my biggest present made it half way today. I wished I had it with me tomorrow but can’t help the situation. Been sicker than in years for a couple of weeks. Felt like I’m never getting better. […]

Dance of the black snake.

December 11, 2013

Been a long time, sick, fighting, giving up, being poisoned. Not been in school regularly, last week only two days and this week none. High stress level, hurt my knee and it’s swollen, my right foot is swollen too, as bad as it used to be. Still no winter jacket. So, layered clothing, endlessly. My […]

Alienation

August 17, 2013

Seed told me last week that my current problems might be caused by me letting myself get out of trouble too easily. I just seek immediate comfort and pleasure that got me hooked on sugar in the first place. Some other post I explained he doesn’t really talk, he just reflects the chaos in my […]

If you give up, you have already lost

February 25, 2013

Feels like implosion of the heart. Such a weight on me, pushing the insides into a tight small square, too small for me. I’m big. Not my outside. My outside is miserable, just raw mass without a form. My mind needs lots of space to roam free, now it’s held down in a cage, my […]

Beautiful Blogger Award

May 20, 2012

Via On Windy Days. Thank the one who nominated you by linking back (New Rule) Either give a paragraph of the most beautiful thing you’ve ever seen or post one picture of something you consider beautiful. Because a picture’s worth a thousand words. Nominate five blogs Let your nominees know by leaving a comment on their […]

My sister called my Tropical Hello Kitty a n*****

March 8, 2012

:( It’s a pretty little Hawaiian girl-kitty. But at least she freed her from the swimming ring that was stuck. She has a lil tummy, that’s why. And anyway, I don’t understand why my family members have started to use the n-word at all! Is it some kind of rebellion against the social norms? Why? […]