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Archive for the ‘therapy’ Category

1 scoop of light, 2 scoops of darkness

June 29, 2017

Been a while since the last update. It feels like an eternity. I usually get on a better mood when I write about what’s wrong. I’d really love to talk to someone about this but I can’t. Already put as much as I could into my other blogs but really, who has ever encountered a […]

…still there are changes

December 16, 2012

A good album from far behind in time. I discovered it the time I moved out of home and it marks as well a period in my life as my experience of “true love”, grief, deep pain and loss greater than anything yet. My body’s hurting, it was a long day. Partly fun, mostly tiring. […]

Sunshine & rain

June 3, 2012

Some time ago I remembered I had recieved this award too, from my friend @ On Windy Days. I leave it written in the way he had too. :) The Sunshine Award is supposed to be given to “bloggers who are inspirational, and who have impacted your blogging or your life.” Unfortunately most of those have […]

Two people

April 7, 2012

A very short Easter visit from my parents and sister. They brought food and juice. Dad was very nervous the whole time here and criticized the giant work I did yesterday and this morning to clean it up here to look at least a bit normal. It’s such a luck he doesn’t know how it […]

Giving myself away

February 27, 2012

That night I saw the ground crumble, I saw the cities fall like dry sand castles, gushes of wind blowing away bricks and cement blocks. Like they were light as feathers. Nothing but feathers. All light was gone. The aftershock hit the land in deep dark, shaking away the last fractures of human pride. One […]

“I will diminish, and go into the West and remain Galadriel”

October 21, 2011

Passed the test. For now. I feel relieved, but also scared. This is getting overwhelming. A serious talk with my counselor, he found it good that I see this as an addiction – the same way than drug addicts have, starting with marijuana and ending up with heroin. Well, but all I can do is […]

We can rise above them all

October 20, 2011

Three cups of sort-of-coffee, in a row. One after another. Within 4 hours though. Got a release of stress, pretty nice. Still my mind is completely mixed up. That “thing with Ari” hit me again last night when going to bed. Not the stuff I talked yesterday. This is different and a lot stronger. Although […]

Confrontation is good, skipping your chores not

October 20, 2011

In a sort of productive way of course. I have nothing to say, I’m out of words, spilled them already. So long silent, only talking to cat, and then so much talking (even when only in text mode) in two days. Well it’s good, it’s good. Plus it’s a conf. I should go head-on to […]

How much is the fish?

August 31, 2011

Music: Behnam Safavi. Again. I’ve listened to that really a lot lately. Everytime I sit here I listen to this cd at least once. Have to get the lyrics somewhere, I love to sing in languages I don’t speak or understand, like japanese or arabian. On my desktop there that small window on sidebar with […]